I Hate Change

My entire life has been about change and now, at this stage, I'm ready for it to stop. I need something firm and unchanging. I guess that will never happen so I'd better get used to it. I feel like change has hit me especially hard this year and I'm not sure why. I haven't ever cried when leaving people or places, but this year....oh brother. I really wanted to stay in my apartment, my very first apartment ever. Not happening! I wanted to remain in the same ward with the same connections and have everyone stay put. Nope! Where we were was as close as I could get to the building where I practically live everyday. The ward was beyond amazing, which is something none of us expected. I, myself, also changed. I began to open up more to those around me (relatively speaking), I trusted myself more, tried many new things (some of which I never thought I'd do) AND I can play guitar on EXPERT on Rock Band. Pretty successful huh?!? As my mom would say "You've just grown up, that's all that's different." And once again, mother knows best. When deciding where to live in the fall, I had many factors to consider - cost, location, people. With only 4 roommates left hanging around with me and more to leave, I didn't want to have to "train" 5 brand new ones. I can live with being farther away from my building (I love the outdoors anyways), and I can adjust to a new ward. I realized that my stubbornness was only because I didn't want change. I wanted one thing in my life to stay the way it was. Weddings seem to be "popping out of the snow...like daisies"(Name that movie). Since October, there have been about 10 weddings of my friends. And even more to come CRAZY!! (No Tay, that doesn't mean I'm next so stop looking for your future brother-in-law). Many of my friends are returning from their missions too. A lot of the guys that I grew up with here are home and one more is due home this summer. I'm leaving for London on Tues and I can't wait, but I'm also really nervous. Flying is not something I love, but I don't hate it either. It's just takeoff and landing that get me bad. I've never traveled to a foreign country by myself before so that in itself will be a new experience. I can't wait! Change is inevitable...and I've had my fill.